Better Than You

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"Better Than You"
Who:  Severus Snape & Remus Lupin
When: 6th Year
Chapter One:  Here


A pass to the Restricted Section was even easier than Severus thought it might be.  Dumbledore gave it to him without even glancing up, saying that he was looking forward to the results.  Severus could only imagine that he meant the Wolfsbane Draught paper he was going to submit, but who knew with the old wizard?  Dumbledore was not a man anyone ever underestimated.

When Remus did not show, Severus noticed and wrote it off.  That brief connection and near friendship had been enough to make him even more bitter about the whole idea of friendship and turned him off on it entirely.  Stupid git.  As if he might have actually found things in common with a creature like that!  Good riddance!

Too bad his breakthrough potion was going to help the mangy sod!  Severus groused as he found the book he was looking for and brought it back to the table.  This was not a potions book at all, but one on the animagi.

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:( Poor Remus

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"He just stares at me all day? I catch him in classes too!" This was only because Sirius tended to sit between James and Remus that he was sure he was the object of those haunting, angry, oddly expressive eyes for someone with such a straight and emotionless face. "I'm going to say something--"

It was James that reached up to tug his best friend down. "Heel, Pads. Sit down. Good boy."

On the rare occassions that Severus actually caught Remus's eye, he turned away completely. He couldn't deal with his wants properly and it was absolutely eating at him.

Two nights before the full moon, the Marauders were all feeling it's call. They were on edge as Remus became more and more prone to the affects of the transformation to come. It usually meant that they acted out all the more. Severus had been fairly good ignoring them to a degree but when something from behind him flipped into his cauldron and turned his potion into sentient slime that tried to crawl out the door, he'd had enough.

Unfortunately for Remus, when Severus turned to blow up the cauldron Black was working on in retaliation, his friends had all 'abandoned him' while looking innocent.

"Mister Snape! Mister Lupin! DETENTION!"

You clearly just like torturing him EVEN MORE

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Remus was thankful Sirius listened to James. He didn't need round two of this. Not now, not when every fiber of his being itched for Severus' touch. And it only got worse as the hours got closer to the full moon.

To say he was upset about the detention was an understatement. Not only had he done nothing, as he usually did, but it meant time with Snape. And given that the full moon was a little more than twenty-four hours away, Remus was not looking forward to this.

He sat there at his desk, scribbling down an essay. If he could ignore the Slytherin for the next few hours and not touch him, then all would be well. He'd get out of this unscathed.

One thing to know about playing with me: I LOVE Torturing characters!

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Slughorn was not the best moderator for detention. Severus would have happily been set to work preparing ingredients, but instead, he was left writing an essay he could do in his head that seemed fit for a second year. He'd just completed, and heard back that morning, that his wolfsbane potion paper had been accepted for publishing and that it was moving into the testing phase as potions masters around the globe tried to recreate it.

Not that he cared. Remus could suffer for a few more months. He didn't mean that however. And he knew it, chiding himself.

"Now boys." Severus looked up, hoping for a reprieve from the essay, even if he was only at six feet out of the ten required. "I've a dinner party to attend. Can I trust you two not to hex each other?" He didn't wait for a response. "Good lads!"

And off he went.

It's okay, I torture Remus far more than any other character

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Remus didn't look up. Well this was fantastic. Being left in a room with a bloke you've previously snogged while currently amped up with hormones. Great. Just great.

He continued to scratch his quill against the parchment, just to do it. He needed something to do to take his mind off of him. Remus shook his hand and stretched his neck, eyes trained on the paper.

Even as Slughorn left, he didn't dare look away.

*cheer* I think Sev might be my whipping boy too

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It was too quiet for too long. Severus hadn't been planning on doing anything other than hate on Remus until he could finish up his scroll and run away. It was just hard to do so when he was having a hard time not turning around to stare at him.

"I've received word," he said, and then cleared his throat, "that they are going to begin testing the draught. I'm sure Dumbledore will be able to have Slughorn make it for you next month."

Older Remus is much easier to be mean to

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He continued to scratch at the parchment. His eyes flickered up in a moment of weakness. "Good deal." Remus managed to keep his voice cool. It wasn't at all inviting, but not angry either. He just needed to control himself long enough to get out of there.

I think older Severus is harder. He's already got nothing and you expect it to end bad.

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Good deal? Severus smirked and finally turned to look at the other boy. He'd not cast his Patronus in weeks. He hadn't tried to get the ears to reappear either. He'd just completely ripped the small bits of comfort Remus provided out of his life. He meant to say something, but he couldn't manage it, watching Remus masacre his scroll instead.

Remus already lost everything. He's the adult character you know has problems

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And he continued to massacre it, too. Until he stopped. Remus looked back up at him. "You know it didn't have to be like this." He clenched his teeth. The silence was just making matters worse.

But that just makes him so much more loveable!

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Severus blinked entirely too long lashes at Remus, willing himself to turn around even if he could not manage it. He dropped his head instead. "What did you expect it to be like?" he finally asked. He could literally feel his heart pounding away in his chest as he tried to muster up something more to say. "There's just no way we could have... It was wrong to even...." Severus clammed up and turned around before he told Remus that he missed him. Oh, missed him so much.

Indeed. And that much more easy to throw angst at him

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Remus looked over at him. "I wasn't expecting that. I wasn't expecting you to storm off and not talk to me for almost three weeks." Remus swallowed. He wanted to go over and hug him, hold him, do something to regain the connection, the contact they once had.

But he didn't. He just sat there, and looked up at Severus with pain staked eyes and regret.

"It wasn't supposed to happen like that. I overreacted." He said simply.

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"Yes," he said without hesitation. His hair had grown out more since they'd last been in touching distance and covered the back of his neck completely even when he hunched over his scroll. He hardly cared how straggly it looked. "Overreacted and misunderstood."

He tucked a long strand of black behind his ear and set down his quill again.

"I had determined that the reason I was so comfortable with you was because of what and who you are." He swallowed and lowered his voice. "I wanted confirmation, not to make you think that I did not accept you."

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Remus shook his head. "You don't fully explain things well. And I don't see why you can't just be comfortable with me." He said, scratching the back of his head. His fingers idly toyed with his own hair.

He sighed again as his other hand pressed into his leg. Maybe that would stop the urges to be with him. It only reminded him that he was alone.

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"I could have been," Severus clarrified. "No... I was. I was very comfortable with you." Evidently, their ability to communicate was still piss poor. "Despite the company you keep." That made his lips curl up lightly. Just a little tease. He fell silent again, picked up his quill, and continued on with his essay. "'S'not as if I'd ever been allowed to be myself like I'd been with you."

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Remus sighed and picked at the ends of his hairs still. He didn't know what to do with what he said. His chest tightened and he felt his heart beat quicken. Remus dug his fingers into his palm.

"I know it doesn't mean much, but I'm so sorry about what Sirius threatened to do. I don't know what's got into him lately." Remus said, looking down again.

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Severus stiffened slightly. It was not a good memory. Being so terrified that he broke down like that had been devistating to him. "Doesn't matter," he said through grittened teeth. "I don't--" He had too much pride to go to Remus. Even if he was sure that having his forehead again the other boy's might have calmed his thoughts, he could not risk the drop again.

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He sighed again. It mattered. It mattered far too much for words. Remus bit his lip, his mind revolting from his body. "It does matter. You matter and what he said, what he almost did. It was wrong." Remus said, most of his anger dissolved.

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You matter.

Severus squeezed his eyes shut, accidently ripping the nib of his quill right through the parchment. He let it go and it lightly hit the desk before he turned around, dark eyes unreadable.

I miss you.

Severus tried to catch his breath before he whispered those words, Merlin help him, out loud.

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His eyes simultaneously brightened and darkened at those words. Severus missed him. It meant a lot to hear that, but there was far too many hormones running through his body. He continued to look into his eyes. "I've missed you, too." Remus admitted. Everything in him ached to rush at him. He wanted his touch.

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Severus stood. He made all of the first moves. He orchestrated their connections and reconnections. Remus was waiting for him. Standing up, Severus climbed the teirs towards Remus's desk, leaned on the thick wood surface, and gently butted his forehead against Remus's before he wrapped his fingers in his robes.

It was a good enough start, though the way Remus smelled -- it was everywhere, in his nose, in his blood left Severus breathless. Needy. He almost drew back in fright.

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He retreated slightly. "I-I can't. If I start, I wouldn't be able to stop." Remus clenched his teeth. "Tomorrow's the full moon. And you're all I've been thinking about for weeks."

Merlin, did he miss his touch. It hurt to cut it short, but it took everything in him to refrain from the urges, to prove he wasn't just an animal.

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"I'm a wizard," Severus murmured. He wasn't letting Remus go. "And there's no real place to go. You can stop yourself. I can stop you." Kissing in the middle of the potions classroom was not something Severus ever imagined he do.

Not ever. Certainly not with Remus. He couldn't stop himself.

The touch was warm. Soft. But certainly not brief.

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He bit his lip and leaned into him. His hands clutched at Severus, his hands on his chest. Remus kissed him a lot more needy than before. Everything in him driven to this moment, the kiss, the embrace. He pulled him onto his lap, not being able to contain himself any longer.

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Severus protested, grumbling slightly when he found himself bumped into the heavy desk, but Remus's lips were a good distraction. He tugged lightly at the werewolf's hair, thumb touching the thickest part of his ear and then swiping down along his throat. Skin to skin contact was bliss.

He could feel their hearts pounding between their lips and against his palm, quite happy to continue on this course for a few hours or, to make up for their time apart, a few weeks!

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That would more than satiate Remus' current need. He craned his neck back and closed his eyes. Severus' hands could go wherever they pleased right now. Remus was completely lost in the moment, a head rush of contentment.

His fingers raked down his torso, down to the hem of his pants. Both hands went to Severus' hips, pulling him closer to Remus. He deepened the kiss, tilting his head that much more. His mouth started to explore the other's. His tongue reacquainting itself with Severus'.

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Severus was oddly vocal during this particular snog, murmuring bits of nonsense against Remus's lips as he loosened the other boy's red and gold tie. It occured to him more than once that the Dungeon, in the potions classroom, where Slughorn would return before too long, was a bad idea to do this.

He didn't want to be sitting side saddle like some witch on a broom in Remus's lap either.

"Shack?" He had to literally pry his mouth away. "Oh, bloody hell, scrolls first, then Shack?"